athena139's avatar

athena139

Love not Hate
11 Watchers41 Deviations
15K
Pageviews

Deleting

1 min read
Hi, guys. I'm gonna be deleting this account and making a new one. I need a clean start on some stuff. I'll be making the new account tonight and deleting this one tomorrow.

Sorry I haven't updated just life, good, bad, stress, boredom, writer's/artist's block... yeah sorry. I hate how much I say sorry I feel like Wilt.

In other news I'll be going to the deviant art convention in Seatal (Seatil, Seatel? ID K I'm on my phone right now.)

I love you all.
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In

Happy new year!

2 min read
Well 2012 was a somewhat big year for me. Got my first kiss, my dad got married, I got bangs for the first time in my life, moved to a new apartment, I finish middle school, I excepted my sexuality, I started high school, made new friends, got a cat, am out of the closet with school friends, went to my first school dance, came out to my best friend, figured out I want to be a animator, and got a tumblr. This year has been up and down for me, but over all I think it was a good year.

I just want to say thank you to everyone who's helped support me threw this year, you guys are really good friends. Thanks for putting up with my stupid teen mood swings.

Hello 2013, please don't give me something I can't handle. Already looking forward to getting a new hair cut, going by Monty at school, coming out to my Aunt and having a sleep over with my best friend.

I wish the for everyone for the coming year. My good fortune find us all.
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In

Problems

2 min read
You know I think I just figured something out. Problems are a lot like art.

With art and being an artist, one of the things that's commonly said is that you shouldn't compare your art to someone else's because you've practiced different styles over a different number of years. No one can really say If one artist is better than another, let alone saying one artist is better than another by comparing only two pieces.

A similar thing can be said about problems. Take a friend of mine for example she was raped as a child by her father. It is terrible that this happened to her, I don't think anyone can argue that. The thing is when you compare that to the life of a women in sex trafficking it doesn't seem that bad any more.

The point is we all have problems and these problems should be delt with accordingly. We shouldn't have to feel like crap asking for help on a problem because we feel it isn't big enough. What's a stick figure to me might be a Mona Lisa to someone else. We all have a different pain tolerance. Don't brush off someones problems with a 'children are starving in other countries' because yes they are and it's terrible, but for all you know the person in front of you is contemplating suicide and is trying to reach out.



Sorry it's three in the morning where I'm at and I just needed to share this idea while I had it. I hope I haven't offended anybody. It's just most the time I feel depressed and I hate myself for feeling that way when other people have it worst and then I feel terrible for hating myself because I should just be happy to be alive and blah blah blah vicious circle.
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In

I chickened out

1 min read
I didn't tell her. Normally my Aunt and my dad meet half way to pick-up/drop me off, but my dad took me all the way so I didn't get to talk to her like I normally do, and the rest of the week I didn't say anything about it, even though we did talk about how there's no fiction lesbian characters in the main stream media... I think she's hinting that she knows, alot of the weekend was made up of topics like that.

Sigh, oh well, always next month :)


On another note I came out to my friend Hannah. We've been friends since kindergarten and I told her last time we talked on the phone (3 hr.s straight xD) we talk a bit about it, the first thing she said was that it didn't change her opinion of me in the slightest. So that went well.
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
I truthfully hate the church my dad is making me go to with all my heart.

Today they had a service about marriage... it was awful. They talked about how feminist, homosexuals, and people who elope are like rapist. They also said that you should put your marriage in front of your children and tell your children that the marriage is more important. Another main point was that women should never be in charge of men and that a women shouldn't question a mans decision.

It was terrible... and I just sat there and took it for two hours. I just sat there listening with my mouth clamped shut, showing no emotion.

They made jokes, mostly sexist, threw out the service and It sickened me when my dad leaned over and told me to 'lighten up, dear'.

When I got home I cried.





I'm sorry I've been posting stuff like this recently, I hate complaining. I wasn't even going to post this, but... this was heavy on my heart and the only person I can vent to I don't get to see till thanksgiving...

Thanks for readin
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Featured

Deleting by athena139, journal

Happy new year! by athena139, journal

Problems by athena139, journal

I chickened out by athena139, journal

I don't hate Christians but... by athena139, journal